How's this for a contradiction:




SPIKE AND DRUSILLA. You and you're love have been
together a while...and you have him completly
whipped...not that he minds it of course. He
would do anything for you and you love it


Which Buffy The Vampire Slayer Couple Are You Best In? (Girl)
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I did think they had the most 'romantic' rel, but really would have rather been Willow and the Werewolf. I loved the Werewolf. (of course now I've forgotten his name, the actor was Sean Green but the character? Ozzie?? It will come to me). Still, I liked him best. He was the sort of guy I liked in high school too.

if you lurk long enough, all your obsessions will be found. I have a whole relationship with Henry VIII (king of England, father of Elizabeth, second son made good) that most people don't and then I come across a quiz asking which of his wives I would be. I was initially surprised at my result but on consideration, I think I got the best deal.







Which of Henry VIII's wives are you?

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Makes me happy to know there are so many twisted like minded souls out there!

my cable internet connection is so slow lately. It used to be just click and be there and lately it's been minutes between certain sites (though not all of them) I don't know why it is but it's damned annoyed.

Well, one of my favourite Carrie Fisher lines is: instant gratificiation takes too long.

I'm dieting and drinking lots of liquids and trying not to snack. I'm not at all hungry but realise how often I just graze and eat rubbish. I read the package and see that my favourite biscuits (cookies to my american friends) are 100 calories each. 100 calories!! 15 of them and my day is done. And I used to eat 3 or 4 without thinking. So no more bikkies. :-(

I have to do it, none of my spring clothes fit!! H asked me the other day if my breasts were bigger and he's not dreaming, they are. I keep looking at reflections of myself in passing windows, saying, t his is how you really look, see it. I used to have the reverse of anorexia, instead of looking at the mirror and seeing only fat, I would look at the mirror and say 'you look fine' but I wasn't looking at myself. I see photos of myself and I'm horrified.

I've given myself a regeme. I want to loose a pound a week for 14 weeks. And then I say, that's not enough you have to lose more, you can do it, and then I wind up not losing anything but putting on another 3 pounds. So I'm forcing myself to have modest goals and I'd better bloody get there. I am a frighteningly overweight, it's affecting my health. I've stopped doing things because I'm too heavy. I don't want to live this way. So slow and steady and get some movement going. I'll just come on here and ramble when I want to eat. Well, it's day 2. Well, we're in for the long haul.

oscars ramble

we sat and watched the oscars with friends, had about 10 of them over. I served spaghetti bolognese with a vegetarian non diary option. (Vegan options are a difficult for me, and then the next person didn't eat wheat. Luckily she had fed herself before she came. I'm not being mean, if you have a wheat allergy, you have a wheat allergy, but it's getting impossible to cook for people nowadays! Soon I'll be making bowls of brown rice and giving them that.)

anyways, it was nice to sit and watch with friends, though we all sorely missed the red carpet which is your chance to see what everyone is wearing, which is, as we all know, the best thing about the event. It's so weird to think that last year we were in LA for them, it seems so long ago. This year we were in NY and actually enjoyed them more without the stress and hoopla.

I was very interested in Micheal Moore's reaction. Both that they gave him the oscar, for what I thought was an excellent documentary and one of the few documentaries to make a substantial profit, ie so lots of people have actually seen it, and for his speach. The first thing I noticed was that all the other nominees went up with him. So they all must have discussed it before hand, and all of them must have been prepared to give an anti-war statement. I would have l liked to know what the others would have said. For while I agree with everything he said, I also feel he struck a jarring note. Too passionate? too abraisive? Not sensitive to the audience, both in the auditorium and at home? I think that Adrien Brody made quite a similar speach without hitting any wrong note (including the dramatic kiss, that looked like fun!)

We were glad that Nicole won, I actually think she was marvellous in the Hours, but didn't see how her role was main and Julianne Moores was supporting. I think they had about equal air time and so both should have been main or both supporting, but that's a minor quibble. Am I the only one who noticed how Denzel Washington backed away from kissing her? Poor form on his part I thought, part of the job is to congratulate the winner and it looked a bit odd. I'm glad Catherine Zeta Jones won, I thought she was the best thing about Chicago. I'm really annoyed that Chicago won best costume and art direction both of which I thought were frankly crap. Worse than average I think the costumes actually detracted from the film they were so bad. They made Renee Zegwiller look revolting. We took a vote (admittedly there were only 12 of us, but the results were telling) and nearly everyone there thought Renee was awful, but I have to admit I was leading the pack. That scrunched up face she makes, just makes me want to slap her! My friend had a little tirade against Colin Farrell (who was one of the presenters) , which I didn't have half as much energy about, I'm neither over him nor in love with him and in fact have only seen him in Minority Report, but Matt was passionate in his denounciation and so we all let him have his say. We did threaten to join Matt to every Colin Farrel fan website but on second thoughts, I would be irritated rather than amused to receive RZ fanmail and so I haven't gone through with the evil threat. But I can see that my reacction to RZ may be over the top. Well that's the function of celebrities, they are irrationally admired and equally irrationally loathed, and they give us this common currency to talk about. Also we are the giant makers here, so we can build them up with adulation and then, with equal capriciousness, tear them down. It gives the illusion of power.

Day 5 of the war and it's going to be long and hard. Well, I knew that from the outset. One friend with Iraqui contacts told me that one problem is that as long as it seems that Saddam has even a 10% chance of winning, people will be too fearful of repercussions to revolt. It's only when they know 100% that he is going, no matter what, that they will feel able to switch sides. I also think that Saddam is saying, we sit tight for a month, and they'll be gone. I don't know what I think about the war anymore. I actually think that I don't mind it being an oil war, that protects American standards of living. I like American standards of living and I like American values (though the fact that you can still be imprisoned for anal sex in Texas is a bit of a worry!) I want democracy and civil liberties to at least be on the agenda even if they are imperfectly displayed. If China becomes the super power (as it will, it is inevitable) then these things may not be on the agenda, so my line is keep America the super power as long as possible, but just don't let the power corrupt it, so that it becomes all that it hates.